Dissolved Girl

Dissolved Girl by Massive Attack

Shame, such a shame
I think I kind of lost myself again
Day, yesterday
Really should be leaving but I stay

Say, say my name
I need a little love to ease the pain
I need a little love to ease the pain
It's easy to remember when it came

'Cause it feels like I've been
I've been here before
You are not my savior
But I still don't go

Feels like something
That I've done before
I could fake it
But I still want more

Fade, made the fade
Passion's overrated anyway
Say, say my name
I need a little love to ease the pain
I need a little love to ease the pain
It's easy to remember when it came

'Cause it feels like I've been
I've been here before
You are not my savior
But I still don't go, oh

I feel live something
That I've done before
I could fake it
But I still want more, oh.

Gah

Having fibro really sucks! I've felt terrible the last few weeks, I'm finding it really difficult to deal with it. Having a tough time, it really started when I had my first 'aunt flo' after going off 'the pill' and it has continued since then. My head feels so bizarre, trouble with my memory, trouble making much sense, things seem to be jumbled. The pain and fatigue has been unbearable! I find it hard to do just every day things, and finding it so difficult to get the light exercise I actually need as well. It is really hard to talk about, as people just seem to think its all excuses, but they don't understand what it is actually like. Feeling a bit depressed as well, and I really don't like it.

How soon is now?

One of the most awesome songs of all time!

I am the son
and the heir
of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and heir
of nothing in particular

You shut your mouth
how can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
just like everybody else does

I am the son
and the heir
of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and the heir
of nothing in particular

You shut your mouth
how can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
just like everybody else does

There's a club if you'd like to go
you could meet somebody who really loves you
so you go, and you stand on your own
and you leave on your own
and you go home, and you cry
and you want to die

When you say it's gonna happen "now"
well, when exactly do you mean?
see I've already waited too long
and all my hope is gone

You shut your mouth
how can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
just like everybody else does

What can I say?

Well I haven't blogged for awhile, I guess I feel like things have been just weird. I can't really explain it. I mean its been three weeks since I blogged and I don't even know where those three weeks have gone. I've been sick for three weeks, maybe that has something to do with it. I really don't know. I just want to look ahead, and be happy and live life.

I can certainly say that a few events have certainly been eye opening, and true colours have been shown. Met some interesting new people, which is always exciting. I have been so fatigued lately as well, I need to see my doctor, got to have some follow up tests.

Weird, I haven't even watched a movie in ages, I started one but didn't finish it. And I couldn't stand that PS I Love You, I just wanted to see Gerard Butler in the nude lol!

Punk

This man is divine!